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Friday, January 28, 2011

A passion...

Was there something that you dreamed of doing or being but never had the guts to do so? I believe everyone has that sort of feeling once in a while or maybe all the time. Eventually, what happens to those dreams? Do they just fade or do they stir regret within you? 


There's just so many things I wished I could do or could have done but time was the main thing holding me back. Sometimes I wished I had all the time and support to do what I've been wanting to do that would just make my day or perhaps my life. Most people don't know much about me. I mean they do know me but they don't know what I'm really thinking and the ideas I have and what I want to do. Those who spend most of their time with me would probably know me and they would know that I'm a little loose in the head...lol.


One of the things I would really love love love to do is write. Since I was young, writing has always been a part of me. I did write alot of stories, poems and songs. Infact I still kept my song books till this day. I still love writing but you know, I'm a designer now not a journalist lol so that kind of makes it harder to venture into this field. I don't necessarily like writing about news and stuff it's more to casual writing like maybe get my own column in the papers or write a book or something like that. I just feel like I have alot to say but I don't talk alot of heart to heart things to anyone so all these things remain buried in me. I don't mean like I have an issue and I have to emo it out to someone lol I just have alot of theories about life and what I think of it or just some random thoughts... I know I'm weird like that ha!


Another one of my passions is ofcourse in the field of arts and design. Creativity is such a powerful thing one could ever possess. So if you have it, don't ever second guess yourself for venturing into this field. Now, when we talk about design, I assume alot of people think I love photoshopping so so so much lol but the truth is, not really. I used to love it when I was in highschool because it was new to me but as I started getting my hands on more softwares, Photoshop became something less exciting for me. I still love it though because it's great to edit your stuff and I still need it for the most part of my design works. But there's just so much more then that. Honestly, I really love 3D animation and video production alot. As a Digital Art student these were the two things I was most excited to learn but unfortunately.... I think I rather not say. 


I did try really hard to learn 3D. It wasn't easy for me at first. I failed multiple times and well eventually I got to a point I was satisfied with my outcome but still... that's not where I plan to stop. I've seen far better works than mine and there's just no reason for me to feel proud of my work yet. I recently started modeling characters. It's something i've always wanted to do but I had to learn the basics of 3D first like setting up the scene so thats why I learned interior and exterior scenes otherwise where would my character live! lol


As for video, sad to say I don't really have the equipment for it but I do have some ideas to do this using what I have now... iPod and my DSLR lol. not much but you know baby steps can take you a really long way. I was thinking of doing something cool this sem break using characters and making a video. I haven't thought of it yet but hopefully it's successful. I also have an ongoing project for myself which has something to do with my characters. So i'm not just building them based on nothing, they are a work in progress... modelling them is only 10% of it. I'll explain more of that on my other blog which is my portfolio blog. 


Some people ask me why am I so free to do this. The thing is yeah I'm kinda free this sem but no, it's just something I've wanted to do for the longest time and I finally have the time, equipments and skill to do so. Besides, alot of designers keep themselves busy with their own projects. You can build up your portfolio, gain new knowledge, and improve yourself doing this. I don't believe in college assignments to be honest. They are just a stepping stone for us but the rest is up to us to learn and take the lead. If you have a passion for something then go for it. Another reason why I'm doing this is also because... I'm graduating soon and suddenly it came to my realization that I don't know anything about digital arts. My college didn't provide me with much digital lessons mostly it was more to graphic design... which is not what I want to do. So, how on earth am I supposed to get a job as a digital artist? That's the question that seriously got me thinking. 


This is a really long post but I haven't been blogging in ages so it's alright I guess. The whole point of this post was to tell everyone that if you have a passion for something, don't let it go. You only live once so why not just achieve what you want in this lifetime. 

Friday, January 21, 2011

Birthday...

6 days ago, I turned 21... and alot of things will be different from now. Well, not really because I had everything, all the freedom and decisions so turning 21 is just something legal by the world's standards. Anyways, this year I had one wish... no presents lol... but I ended up getting ALOT... so thanks everyone for coming to my party and the gifts... The reason why I wished for no presents this year is because I had everything I need and want already and there was no need to ask for more. Also all my friends are still in school and the year just started it's not very nice to burden them for a gift why not let them buy something they like for themselves instead, friendship is not measured by what you give someone, it's the thought that matters. I also felt like turning 21 was a very sentimental thing to me and this means I have to grow up so why not instead of gifts for myself, why don't people wish for giving all this good stuff to people who aren't as fortunate as you are. Maybe next year I would do that. This year got me thinking about birthdays and what does it mean. Maybe this is a sign of old age because I'm obviously thinking to far =) but... to me birthday is a celebration, how long you lived in this world. 21 years, that's pretty long considering it's been two decades already. Poor old parents had been raising you from that puny little infant till you're finally an adult. Sometimes, all we really need to do is just sit back and think about how far have we came into this world, all the experiences and memories. That's what makes us an individual. So this number, 21... it just means I'm an adult and I need to think wisely and start my own life. I guess you can say I'm quite proud of myself because I've learnt to not be dependent on my parents too much. I try to solve most of the things myself and if I have no clue how to, I would just seek advice from my mum. I've learn to live on my own with very little budget and I never ask them for anything. So sometimes, I do end up being broke but it's not because I'm overspending or I don't know how to save, it's just that I'm taking care of my own life with very minimal help from parents. It's save to say that everything I own is from my own money even the clothes on my body to my daily needs. Because of this, I just felt like my parents did a good job in raising me up. Maybe to some people, they would feel like their parents don't love them for not buying them anything but for me, this is a good thing and I would definitely teach my kids this next time otherwise I would DIE... lol...In the end of the day, a birthday is just a day you were born into this world. Be happy to live another year and share it with the one's you love. This would be one of the fondest memory you could take with you forever.